there was this german proverb about trees.the strongest part of a tree, are where its scars lies.tree are under the attack of the elements. the trunk and branches will break and fall. b ut the tree will recover and grow and.though the scars are ugly, it's also the hardest part of the tree.it'll support the tree to grow.everyone has his own story of stormy encounter.idon't intend to compare who's frustration is greater than the other.i know that even before man dominates earth, nature have already given him a survival instinct which helps him grow.even after setbacks, he can walk against the headwind.it's exactly like the tree's old trunk.
watched the 40 yr old virgin on mon and i laughed so badly, like never before. i was nearly sure that if i continued laughing like that i would definitely build abs. yeap (^_^)it was great humour, great casting, great plot...MUST WATCH!!!!!and then yest went to watch skeleton key. hmmm not too bad la. since its just 7 bucks....kekeke...it wasn't that scary, there was the usual suspense, door slamming, people jumping out of nowhere kinda "horror"...and that was about it lor. there was an interesting twist towards the end. did keep me guessing...if bored, can watch la.stayed back to study today. felt like it was just yest that i was mugging for the 2nd yr exams that just passed this may...it's just a matter of months!!! gosh...time really flies @_@anyway its the last yr of mugging for exams...think i'll miss it...
from my window, half the sky is a menacing shade of grey and the other half a pretty shade of pale blue. wearing my blue pyjamas and feeling the breeze in my face, i can only relate to the darker side of the sky.and then i start to think. let my mind wander...there are many a times when i regret the things i do, the decisions i make, the things i say.but i cannot turn back time. i can only lament and hope things will tide over.i tried to recall how we met back then. who approached who? who talked to whom first?under what condition did we get to know each other?honestly i don't remember. all i know is, you are a unique being.the fact that amongst all my other friends, you are in touch with your feminine side, letting your emotions flow.and i appreciate that you are willing to share your problems with me. though, i hardly share mine with you.may be, that's where all the problems start. misunderstandings happen when we lack communication. i hardly talked. for that i apologise.so we've been friends for several years now. sometimes i am amazed at how we manage to keep up with this fleeting friendship. we talked when we are conveniently in school. we ignore each other when it's the hols. but yet with a phone call and after a movie, we can still talk like things never did change. and i don't know what else to say. there are so many things i want to ask you. but i do not have the guts to do so.there are times when you make me fall for you, but then there are also times when you irritate me so much.as much as i like the fact that you are a snag, i wish you can be more decisive.but you know what, you made me feel worthy of myself =)and i'm glad you told me how you feel. i promise i'll be a happier person whenever i'm with you guys. reason why i say your timing is always not right, was because we seem to meet up on days when i'm not in the best of mood. it's coincidence, i swear. i wish things weren't the way they are.anyway, let bygones be bygones. we have this friendship to keep, and i am holding on to it. the future is not for us to say.
old fools are babes again
"old fools are babes again"
just watched the andy lau show, wait till you're older. and it set me back thinking about life and death again.
the topic i dread most. the topic i cry upon everytime i think about the fact that one day, my parents will leave me.
why dun they make a show about making potions for longevity?
the cycle of life is such that we need adults to look after us when we are babies, and when we are adults, we take the responsibilities to look after our elders and children. then when we grow old and sick, we'll need others to look after us like babies again.
will i grow old and lonely?
what did you mean when you put your arms around me?
what did you mean when you hold my hand?
was i just conveniently there for you?
were you taking advantage of my love for you?
i'm always thinking of you, i care for you.
i love you because i want to.
you are more than a friend to me.
though i know i'm just a friend to you.
now i must move on.
i didn't cry, like i thought i would.
but i'm happy i'm finally going to move on.
i know you will.
i'm building walls around myself.
i don't want to feel.
i fear to love.
i'm scared to develop feelings.
i'm afraid of the pain.
